Friday, November 25

THANKSGIVING, IT TAKES A VILLAGE! WHY DO IT? LOVE


What in the world possessed me to make a community turkey dinner here in Tubac, AZ? Oh, yeah, I remember...It was to be a money making event that was to provide a place for people who had no family and wanted to spend time in a lovely environment. The menu was to be a smaller/healthier version of the traditional Thanksgiving Menu. What I was offering was something like this...an Organic Free Range Turkey, roasted garlic potatoes, root vegetable sauteed medley, salad and homemade pie.

What in the heck happened? Only 3 people registered and so I began inviting my friends and with that, something clicked in my brain and the old paradigm, the old model of how Thanksgiving should look quickly came over me! While there were lovely new dishes that everyone loved, the same old traditional dishes were there as well!

I shopped, prepared and cooked for days....By the time Wednesday evening came around, I looked at the 27lb turkey sitting on the counter and announced to my daughter, I’m going to bed! I’m not cooking that turkey! Feeling sorry for the situation I had gotten myself into she offered to help. She said, just tell me what to do. She began making the apple/pecan stuffing and somehow that gave me enough strength to continue. We stuffed our bird and put him in the oven to bake through the night. I woke up at 3AM to the smell of yummy turkey!

I did go to yoga in the morning and then, like many people across America, I worked non-stop until 6PM. Everyone was happy to chip-in, making gravy, whipping cream and cleaning up. I couldn’t have done it without everyone!

Why did I do it....We had the meal at The Floating Stone Inn & Aqua Spa and the owner did a little ceremony with the fire, asking everyone to take a piece of kindling and quickly add them, one by one to the fire, symbolizing the collective energy that we were about to share together and silently reflecting on the things that we were grateful for in our lives. From an elderly Mexican man to 2 young vibrant children and everything in between we were a diverse group.

When I saw and felt the love and gratitude that everyone brought...I knew why I had done it! It was because of LOVE! As many of us sat in the healing hot waters of the spa when all was done the conversation was “This was the best Thanksgiving I ever had!”

It was different/non-traditional but full of wonder, excitement and sharing.
I’m trusting that your Thanksgiving was lovely as well. This is a youtube clip that I loved, maybe you will too! Thank you for being a part of my life! I love you... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gXDMoiEkyuQ

Tuesday, November 22

PATIENCE IS CALLED FOR DURING THE HOLIDAYS....IT’S IN THE STARS:)



We’re coming up on the holidays and spending condensed time with family and friends can be a little hectic.

While I don’t spend much time concerning myself with the alignment of the stars, this month’s blog from Simone was particularly interesting to me because of the timing and one of the themes I continue to work on is clear-direct-communication.

I was reading Simone’s Astrology blog and thought the information may be interesting to you. From now until 2 weeks after Dec. 14, things may be a bit challenging....in all forms of communications, from electronics to in person. I find comfort in knowing that when life has bumps...it can simply be that we’re just in a cycle and this too shall pass. The following is a blurb from Simone’s blog. (www. astroalchemy.com)

What is a retrograde? It's the time when a planet appears to be traveling backwards in its orbit around the sun. It's an optical illusion. Relative from our point of view on Earth, it appears sometimes that a planet will stop and go backwards, (retrograde motion), and then stop again and go forward (direct motion).

For Mercury, this happens usually three times a year, and when it does, you can expect the unexpected.

This month, Mercury goes retrograde on November 25th, and then direct on December 14. HOWEVER, the effect of the retrograde actually can be felt two weeks prior to it hitting us with both barrels, and then hang around for another two weeks until its completed. I find that the phase going into and coming out of the retrograde can be more of a challenge then the actually time spent in the retrograde.

It is a time when things appear to be going backward. Communications of all forms, electronics, as well as travel plans come under the retrograde. You will find that phones, computers, printers, vehicles, machinery of all sorts of items will act out at this time. Communications of all forms are problematic, so best say what you need in person as phone, letters etc, tend to get messed up and or lost.

You will restart things over and over, best to just put them on hold until the retrograde is over. Just a time of getting you to be patient really it gives us ideas, that will be by the time the retrograde is over seem to be much more perfected then our first thoughts.

So there you have it! Take a rest and enjoy the ride! Seems like things will begin to settle down, just in time for the New Year!

Friday, November 18

EAGLES AND HORSES - I’M FLYING AGAIN....FREEDOM!





Yesterday, the house recorded and the Riverbend Retreat House has closed it’s doors, the doors to my past have been closed, however, not forgotten and not without deep gratitude. But healed in a way that allows me to move forward.

When I received the call that all was final....there was a twinge in my heart of sadness and the tears continue to flow involuntarily. But I’ve come to appreciate the fact that when the tears are here...for the first time, I’m in my body...feeling! And that’s good!

Early this AM I woke for a brief moment with the vision of my mentor’s weekly email Sabbath Moments....and the word FREEDOM flashed in front of my face! Ah, yes, letting go opens new doors, new opportunities! The John Denver song Eagles & Horses came to my mind....”The body is merely the shell of my soul....I had a vision of eagles and horses....."

Just yesterday, I had a job offer on the table for managing The Floating Stone, a lovely spa, inn and retreat center...and I had my first lunch date....in like, hmmmmmm...forever! And I actually went!

I had a vision of eagles and horses, high on a ridge in a race with the wind....going higher and higher, faster and faster, on eagles and horses, I’m flying again....

Thank you to all, for your love and support in helping me to move forward....I love you!

Wednesday, November 16

TRANSITION



After signing the papers to sell the house, there was nothing left in California for me. Sure, I have a couple of children who live there, but that can change at any time! I thought I was loyal to CA, but realized when the sun came out for the first time in about 10 days here in AZ, I wasn’t loyal to CA...I was loyal to the SUN....I’m a sun girl, a very fickle sun girl, who would leave wherever she was in order to live in the Light!

It doesn’t seem like it should be so hard to let go of a house and living status in a particular state. But with that comes all of what living in CA has been for me over the past 40 years. It is making peace with the past and willingness to move into the future.

I marched myself down to the DMV, (only 4 people were there, very unusual - 4 + angel support) got a number, 225+9 (Completion, for me CA). Would I just register my car or get a driver’s license as well? I’ll fill out the paper for the license, just in case....stopped half way through. No, too much trouble to get a new license...I’ll just register the car. I looked up at the number being served, 222 at counter 3....Hmmmm another 9. OK, I’ll get both!

Seeing these numbers doesn’t mean anything in particular, it simply is a call to stop, breathe and check in with myself....what is it that I’m really wanting to do?

Now this method of seeing support in a myriad of ways, seems a bit foreign at first, but for me, it is what helped me to move forward, letting go of the past so that I am now free to fly into the future.....with a heart full of gratitude....not that there are not still panty twist moments involved.

Sunday, November 13

SPIRITUAL SUPPORT COMES IN MANY FORMS



I had a comment on the blog about Baxter the healer dog. The comment was “This is some funny sh_t!” Well, I agree! So I thought I would tell one more crazy story that happened to my cousin and I when she was here visiting.

What I knew is that she was coming to the Riverbend Retreat House in AZ and that anything could happen!
The first night I did some energy work together. We could feel the Spiritual Support here.

The second night we were working on the computer and watching a movie. All of a sudden, a very loud rumble rolled across the top of the roof. LOUD! Now this happens on occasion but this was very loud and deliberate. We turned and looked at each other, but continued with what we were doing. My computer stopped working and so I restarted it. When if came back on the screen saver had changed to the one like the picture above, and the wind chimes began to ring. We looked at each other and I said, “We’d better get to work.” She hopped on the table and we did a Dynamic Stillness, cranial sacral work.

I think that it is so interesting when we’re paying attention, how we’re supported. Well, we’re supported even when we’re not aware of it!:)

The angels and Divine Guidance wants to support us on our journeys and they will use whatever means available to them to get our attention. They use whatever is meaningful to us in our lives, songs, words, chimes, numbers, etc. You get the picture. Simply pay attention, become aware and you’ll see it for yourself! Happy Awareness!

HOW DOES RESISTING~ SERVE ME?


As the papers for the final signing of the Riverbend Retreat house arrived....I put them on my desk and did the Scarlet O’Hara thing....”I can’t think about that today...if I do, I’ll just go crazy....I know....I’ll think about it tomorrow!” Well, quite a few tomorrows have passed and they are still sitting there.....Now....what is the resistance?

After spending time with a healer I see when I’m in town, the questions came.....What keeps me in bondage? How is holding on (to the familiar) serving me? I’ve been working on beginning to ‘live in my body’ and feel...what I’m feeling! In order to trust what I know...I have to feel....(Talk, trust and feel are areas in my life that I continue to heal.)

It was easy for me to identify that while owning a home for some is security, for me it’s bondage. I know that in my head, why I can’t I feel that in my body? Why can’t I sign the dang papers!

Again, how does hanging onto the house serve me? After many hours......It keeps me scattered, ungrounded, distrusting what I know. It serves the the wounds....”You didn’t do it right, you didn’t get a good enough price, you’re ungrateful!”

Hmmmm, the house is a place for the wounds to hide....certainly they don’t want me to get rid of their little secret place to breed. I wondered, what would happen when I get rid of one of their little hiding places? The wise parts of me do know that the way to move forward for me is to free myself from the last physical tie to the past.

Next question: Can I totally let go? While people, places and things don’t define us....I’m tied a bit to the idea of being a California Girl....What I also know, until I am willing to trust and let go....I will remain stuck. Because I don’t understand because I can’t se the bigger picture, will I stop the flow of energy because I can’t trust....ME?

Not this time anyway... My cousin, P3 came, sat with me while I signed the papers on 11.11.11.