Tuesday, September 24

Often, having what you want is a function of letting go of what you have. The Universe

This was the saying from Tut.com this morning.

A couple of months ago one of my mentors asked this question of me, "How do you see the next twelve months of your life looking?" It was great he hadn't asked me one day longer because I would have just gone comatose. But for some reason, I knew instantly. I would be willing to take one year and learn the pieces that I seem to be missing to move ETL forward in this day and age of technology.

In order to do that, I would need a job to support myself and stay in one place for that period of time. I had already begun applying for jobs and I was hired at Canyon Ranch in Tucson in the Program Advising Department.

Knowing my housesitting gig was coming to an end soon, I began looking for an apartment and today I started my new job and signed a year lease on my apartment. While both were exciting, they also came with their panty-twists.

There were mounds of 'disclosures' and papers to sign in both places and putting my new address down felt so vulnerable.

 I wrote to my shaman that The Universe could see I was wigging out and threw me a bone. I got a brand new red couch, night stand and new queen bed, for $400. Where is the money coming from? I actually don't know. But what I do know is that if they arrived the money will follow.

She replied: Brand new bed, table and a red couch....sounds like more than a bone....enjoy the ride and laugh wholeheartedly at all the oh shit oh shit oh shit moments.....all is well and just perfect my friend....this will be a good year....no, a great one!

I had to trust and let go of the comfort of the familiar in order to experience new possibilities.