I BELIVE IN ANGELS

My vision quest is to last until May...ish according to Shamonic Astrology. I am in a cycle of; exactly what I am doing, following the doors that open and paying attention to the ones that close. In my previous life, thinking I knew what was best for me and everyone around me, I would simply push, maneuver and manipulate things the way I thought they should be. It wasn't a bad way to live, but I have found out from experience that watching and waiting for guidance and support from a higher place is much more fun and I've had opportunities and experiences that I didn't have when I was in control of everything.

Most recently, I am here in southern AZ, watching and waiting (and working on my books) for doors to open. I had gone to a restaurant to apply for a bar tending job that I had heard about. I began talking with one of the customers and I said, "I want to go to the dentist in Mexico." He said that his dad goes there. He then gave me his number and I gave him a call. The next week I had an appointment in Nogales, Mexico for an exam and teeth cleaning for $20. How would I get there? No one down here will go to Mexico...really? I remembered I had a friend in Grass Valley who had a cousin who lived near Nogales, so I called and his cousin agreed to accompany this one time.

Everyone I talked to had nothing good to say, in fact, they were all pretty obstinate about Mexico period. As the morning arrived I had some errands to do. I looked at the clock when I left the house, 9:44: in angel numbers, 9=completion and 44=your angels are surrounding you. Great. I was intending to go on the freeway, the light changed, I went another way and discovered a family of crosses along side the road. I stopped and did a soul releasing ceremony. When I finished all my chores, I got back in the car, the clock caught my attention once again, 10:44. 10=new beginnings and once again the 44= angel support. Heading to Nogales, the song that came on the radio, 'I just called to say I loved you, by Stevie Wonder'. I looked at the time, 10:56, once again the 10 representing, new beginnings and the 56, stay focused on your internal spiritual growth among the changes that are coming your way. Getting closer to Nogales, I called the man accompanying me to Mexico and once again I noticed the time, because of the song that came on the radio; The Dance by Garth Brooks, I could have missed the pain, but I would have had to miss the dance. The numbers, songs and words were all very meaningful and touching to me. I was perfectly calm to go to Mexico. I said my morning prayers for protection and taking love and light wherever I go and attracting only that for myself.

We went to Mexico and I had the most enchanting day. I loved being in another culture. It had brought back fond memories of being in Peru. When we left Mexico, there was absolutely no waiting line to cross the border back to the USA, as there had been when we arrive.

The angels are everywhere. All we have to do is to pay attention. Anything that comes into our awareness is Spirit trying to speak to us. Wind chimes, for me are the angels, Wind in the tops of the trees is Spirit. When you stop and tune-in you will recognize what these signs mean to you. We are not alone...we don't have to walk through this life by ourselves!

IT DOENS'T MATTER WHICH TRAIN YOU TAKE ON LIFE'S JOURNEY

Recently I had a phone conversation with a friend about his step daughter. She had a baby at a relatively young age, which now will certainly make life a bit more challenging from some perspectives and yet more exciting from others.

In my beginning to study Shamonic Astrology a bit deeper, what it really does is give everyone a valid place on the wheel of life as well as compassion for ourselves and others. The theory is that we all knew (Great Spirit did, to use the Native American word for God) before we came to earth what we each needed to learn in this life and who would accompany us on that journey. Sometimes the decisions that one may make on their path, another may look at and think... if only, or what a waste, if you had only done....The point is that while we are all on the road of life together, we all have different trails that we follow. Each personal journey is unique unto itself.

My friend was explaining to his step daughter that in big cities there are a couple of different options for train transportation. One being the regular train and the other the express. On the express, you get on at point A and ride the train all the way to point B without any stops. He made the analogy that, it's like when a person chooses to go to school and graduates and then gets a 'regular job.' But she had chosen to take the regular train, stopping many times before arriving to point B.

While I thought his analogy was good, I also thought that taking the regular train allowed for many more adventures and life experiences, which yes, definitely can translate to pain. However, it's in touching the hot stove that we know not to touch it again, or not! One of my favorite Garth Brooks songs comes to my mind...The Dance; I could have missed the pain, but then, I'd have had to miss the dance!

EDUCATION COMES IN MANY DIFFERENT PACKAGES

I am the biggest advocate of education coming in many disguises. Traditional 'education' (the classroom learning) is not always compatible with everyone's learning styles.

A while back I had an issue with the Verizon Air Card. For the whole 6 months that I had it, the bill remained the same. Then one month is went up $200! I spent many hours on the phone trying to understand what happened! One customer service representative took the time to explain to me what a mega bytes and gigga bytes were. (see I can't even spell them!) I was still very unhappy as all I had tried to do was download a free song from Starbuck's and something got stuck and my computer froze and wham....$200 later! What made me the maddest was that no one seemed to care.

I was complaining to my counselor about the money situation, when I noticed the words coming out of my mouth, "I consider it tuition for my education! Guess what will never happen to me again!" Her reply, "So you're wanting Verizon to pay for your education."

More recently, having a renter issue this came to roost again. I had to spend $100 serving papers to them because I hadn't been clear in my communications when they signed the rental agreement. I was angry, hurt and felt taken advantage of. Why am I the one who gets stuck with everything and they get off scott free? Why? Then I remembered Verizon. Because you have to pay for your education one way or another. Sometimes it's just the hard school of knocks that we learn our lessons the best from! So, after a good cry, I wrote an addendum to the original rental agreement, this time being very clear and specific in what I expected. Like I always say, "You get as many opportunities and as much pain as you need until you get the lesson!" You get all the time you need! (PS. the longer it takes to get the lesson, the more pain it seems to cause:) Get it now or get it later....it's up to you!

PAPA'S CHINO HOUSE

After receiving my graduation gift...a car! (Next blog) I was heading back to Arizona, but without a plan, (what else is new) and was just open to what 'felt right.' In the past few weeks, I had driven by the off ramp to my dad's property in Chino and each time I would tell who ever I was traveling with, "My dad used to live down there." But not once did I think to go by. Well, this trip, I found myself on the same freeway, however, this time I pulled off. I called my sister as I couldn't exactly remember the off ramp. I found it with ease and as I pulled up, I was happy to see it had a new face lift, new life! I sat across the street and marveled at the fact that I hadn't even seen the trees in the yard when my dad lived there. I pulled up to make a u-turn as to take some pictures and the song that came on the radio, Dance with my father again, by Luther Vandross. I sat and listened as the tears welled up in my eyes...Even after the years pass, when we pay attention, our loved ones are trying to get our attention from the other side. We are loved! (another picture below)

BACK ON THE GRID OF LIFE

You may have wondered or not:) why I haven't been blogging...I've been off the grid for a bit. Experiencing and processing. Since my last blog, visited a friend in AZ and took another Shamonic Astrology course. Then a friend from Ireland came for 2 weeks and we traveled to the Grand Canyon, Sedona, Kartchner Caverns, all in Arizona and then over to the California coast, Avila Beach, then back to LA. We had many adventures and met lots of people, including family and friends and had some extraordinary spiritual experiences. While I had a great time, I learned a lot as well. I ended this time with a 3 night stay in Laughlin, NV. I had just wanted some retreat time. (I assisted in several soul releases along the way.) I booked Harrah's on line for $27 a night. A beautiful room on the 17th floor with an incredible view of the Colorado River from my bed:) (Where I write) A lovely retreat space or fun spot either way! Lake Havasu was my next stop to see a former neighbor of mine and then to Green Valley, AZ where I'm putting the finishing touches on my first book, due to go to press Dec. 5.

HOLIDAY SANITY

The holidays are once again upon us. I know for myself as a young adult, I tried to bend myself around the plans of others. However, now much older and wiser:) I no longer feel like I need to do things that don't bring me joy, in order to make other people happy. By the way it's happiness from my perspective not theirs.

This holiday season perhaps you could 'check in' with yourself and ask the questions 'What would bring me joy and make me smile?' You may need to think outside the box a bit. It may feel a bit awkward at first. Holidays in my family traditionally were about our little children and our family of origin. It was a very happy time. But then things began to change as things always do. Children began to grow up, siblings moved and parents crossed over to the next life. So what are you supposed to do now? Take care of yourself, that's what! Decide what do you want to do for the holidays.....your imagination is the limit! After my life dramatically changed, I went to a wedding of a child of my close friend of mine. Of course I was a basket case. Another close friend said to me, "What in the hell were you thinking? You can't go to stuff like that right now! It will just make you feel bad about yourself!" He was correct! So the next wedding that I attended, I learned how to support others and still take care of myself...I arrived at the church just before everyone went inside (so everyone felt my love and support) and stood in the back of the church. After the bride walked in, I walked out. No one even missed me. So the point is...take care of yourself....do only what you can do with joy! Have fun! It's your life!