IS IT TRUE BLONDES HAVE MORE FUN?

A lady Clariol Blonde, A Silky Shinny Blonde.....Any one remember the commercials from the 60's, where the blonde is the only one having fun? 

If you ask me what color my hair is, I'd say light brown, even though I know it's blonde. I guess, I don't feel blonde....whatever feeling blonde feels like! I was born a towhead, grew up in southern California, where I spent my spare time either at the beach or swimming in our pool. (When I was younger my hair acquired a nice green tone to it, making me less blonde!)

It is true that about once a year I head for Newport Beach to have my blonde brightened and I do like being blonde. However recently I've been considering changing the color.

I am house sitting for a neighbor that I haven't seen in many years. When I arrived, she said, "You probably don't recognize me because I changed my hair color. She HAD and it was beautiful. It is a deep auburn red. 

When she told me why she changed it I started questioning my own hair color. She is a school teacher and consultant for remote school districts. She said once she changed her hair color, she was taken more seriously at her job and valued for what she brought to the table. 

I started reflecting back on comments I've heard from men about how they prefer blondes (not all men, just the ones I'm referring to here.) I wondered how people feel about blondes and Marilyn Monroe came to mind...A Blonde Bombshell! And Dumb Blonde jokes...it's all about looks and nothing else.

I know my hair color doesn't define who I am. But I'm ready for some kind of change., just not sure it's hair color. But I do know that something has to change for me. Its time!

So....I'm thinking about it! OMG! It's not brain surgery...it's hair color for Petesake! 

FOLLOWING THE FLOW - HAPPY SUMMER SOLSTICE!

Summer Solstice! The longest day of the year! Yahoo!!! (Well, in the Northern Hemisphere anyway!)

This morning I took the two dogs that I'm sitting with for a hike up the mountain behind the house I'm staying. (read more) It has a trail that leads to the big white cross that is lit up will lights all night.

The trail is quite steep and rocky in places. It brought me back to my Yuba River hiking days, and how I wouldn't look too far ahead when the trail was steep. I'd place my focus directly in front of me and eventually I'd make it to my destination, whether it be the end of the trail or out of a canyon.

I was going to write that sometimes goals aren't the answer, sometimes, you just need to let things flow, which went along with a recent astrology blog I read by Simone Butler. (read more)

But I realized that I did have a goal. It was to reach the end or the top of the trail. However, my focus was on what was directly in front of me and not the end result.

Usually, I'm watching and feeling for the flow of energy. That's what I'm doing for this week. If you remember, I put down all the have to's, and went to In and Out Hamburgers. Feeling a bit better than yesterday, I'm now ready to enjoy the week doing whatever/wherever the energetic flow takes me.  (Today, Dana Point!) 

DEPRESSION...MAJOR CONTRACTION!

I just left Green Valley, AZ, where I will be housesitting on some very special land and lovely house for the summer. Yahoo! Yesterday, I was headed to San Diego to housesit for a week. I took a detour to Joshua Tree National Forest, someplace that I pass up every time I head west and yet have never made the effort to stop, even though it's been calling my name for sometime. This time, I did! (Another blog.)

After a yummy dinner with my sister's family in So Cal, I continued on south to San Diego. When I began the climb up the steep driveway I started laughing. You've got to be kidding! Another spectacular home, in the hills of San Diego, complete with view of the city lights and swimming pool and spa! Wow! Whose the lucky girl?

With things seemingly going smoothly, why am I depressed? So depressed that I deactivated my Facebook. Why? I use it as a diversion when I sit down to write....Hmmmm, let me see what's happened since the last time I logged on...and...it just makes me feel bad about myself. 

I read the Writer's Blog....before writing your book you should: Write an overview paper. Whose your target audience paper? Write an about you paper. Establish yourself as an authority. Whose work is yours like? Now, I'm just paralyzed. While it's all great information, I don't know any of the answers.

On Facebook, I get invitations to join this club and that webinar. Again, I just feel bad about me....why? I'm not doing it! They're all doing what they love...they're all making money, they're taking risks and they have friends. Not me:(  (Yes, it's a small pity party, but we're in the shadow of a retrograde, so there!)

Well, the bottom line is...I don't know who my target audience is. (Not that I haven't been trying to figure it out!) I don't know how I want to continue my next book and I don't know anything! 

The problem: I don't care about following people, who their friends are and what they ate yesterday. And I don't think anyone cares about that for me. I promote thinking for oneself, not following. 

Someday when I learn how to use social media, I will! Until then....I'm taking a week off! I'm not working and I'm not writing any in my book! (Even though my BFF and I have a date to compare books when I return to AZ. I'll just have to go empty handed!) 

What I know about contractions, is that there is a birth following! So for now...I'm going to enjoy this beautiful place and when the energy begins to flow again...I'll follow it...until then....Enjoy your summer! It's the official first day today:)))) Yahoo!