SOMETIMES I FLY LIKE AN EAGLE & SOMETIMES I'M DEEP IN DESPAIR!

Here I am, alone at the beautiful beach and depression begins to rear it's ugly head once again. You may ask yourself...as I ask myself....what in the heck do you have to be depressed about? The answer comes....I'm alone with me....again! When I give myself the space, last little bits of unsettledness begin to emerge and I'm stuck with just myself and my pity party! Quick...how do I make this uncomfortableness go away? Diversion of course! No car...well a car with a bad transmission...it'll be ok...I'll just go......around the corner! Driving always makes me feel better....until a sharp jolt wakes me up....it's the transmission! 'You need to stay in your uncomfortableness,' and recognize what the feels of loneliness and anxiety are all about for the healing to begin. I'm reminded of the John Denver song....Looking for Space....'Sometimes I fly like an eagle and sometimes I'm deep in despair! That's it...that's life....it the journey...it's the up's and down's, and the down's that help me to appreciate the up's!

DOLPHIN ENERGY FOR MOVING FORWARD IN LIFE

I just arrived at the next destination on my itinerary, Huntington Beach, CA. The first 2 days had been overcast and as I was settling in, I made a conscious decision not to go to the beach. Finally today, the sun was out and about noon I started out the door. I got as far as the house next door but turned around and came back, deciding to go this evening, for no particular reason. Evening came and I headed for the pier, along with a mob of other people as it was the downtown open market. I walked to the end of the pier and looked out into the sunset and there they were...the fins gliding through the water! The dolphin! They had come to see me! (Evidently a rather rare occurrence) Certainly they came to see everyone, but for me, they had a special meaning. I had been initiated in Hawaii by the dolphin. When I returned home, I got a credit card in the mail for Evolve to Live with a dolphin on it. Then finally, my last trip to Chicago, I acquired my first tattoo...a dolphin. The dolphin for me have been a sign of spiritual support in my life that I'm happy to receive!

PEOPLE FIRST; THEN MONEY; THEN THINGS

My friend has a visitor from South Dakota and one morning I arrived early to drop something off. Her visitor came to the car and asked would I come in for breakfast. "No, Thank you," I replied, "I'm on my way to exercise class," and with that, I was off! Well, at least until I got down the road a bit and then something inside me remembered something I had heard Suzie Orman, (a financial guru) speak about, "People first, then money, then things!" I turned the car around and went back and apologized! "I'm so sorry," I began. "I nearly forgot...People first! I was happy that I had made the decision to spend time with my friend's....friend! Because in the end....when we leave this world we only take the love of our family and friends....everything else is left behind! People first, then money....then things!