Being in Choice, choosing health

Trying to get back on track to living my life again, after several weeks of major panty twists and tears, I wrote to my VBFF and was giving him an update on my progress. I told him I was writing one hour each day and working on my health.

You see, he has someone who wants to represent us for a speaking engagement and his question to me last week was, "When can you be Ophra ready?" What he was trying to say nicely was ,"When can you loose weight and get into shape?"

His reply: If you lose 2 pounds per month while e working out and continuing to monitor your diet, not obsessively, in one year you'll have lost 25 pounds and look smokin' hot. (If you lose 20 lbs per month you'll be 240 lbs lighter you might not want to do that.)

If you write for 1 hour per day (500 words) in one year you'll have a book of over 180000 words after you deduct 20% of them you'll have a gem.

"Success is the progressive realization of a worth ideal." Earl Nightingale

My new job a Canyon Ranch's mission is to inspire people to live healthy lives in order to realize their dreams. (paraphrased)

So, two pounds lighter and a few tears less, I've begun to take a bit of ownership of my existence. Realizing that being in choice is not always about choosing random things but also about choosing to be healthy.

When I told him I wanted to go to restorative yoga, but chose spinning and it nearly killed me, he replied,
Keep doing the cycling and remember what Nietzsche said,
 "That which does not quite kill me will make you (& me) strong."
Also George Bernard Shaw,
"If all we ever do in life are those things which are convenient and comfortable, the great things in life will not get done."

So, I'm off to get more healthy...in this moment...for today...lol...(work).

It's been two weeks since I've moved into my new apartment and started a new job. While the job is fun and exciting, the new apartment is stressful and lonely.

I remind myself often that I chose the journey of being a nomad and now I'm consciously choosing this journey of having my own place and acquiring new skills.

All my friends are kind and want to help me get settled in, but as I told them, "This isn't like "I'm getting married or having a baby! Party!" This is very stressful and it's taking some getting used to on my part. After all, even the statics say that moving is the 3rd biggest stress in ones life. (Why can't it be fun and exciting like it was for my cousin recently?)

For me, all diversions have been removed. I have no tv, not internet and to be honest, I'm so tired after work, after several exercise classes a day, I just go to bed.

A short meditation played on my iphone tonight as I drove home and it was about the Cancer sign, nurturing and caring. It came to me that I need to be Cancer for not only myself, but my latest project...my book. I resolved then and there to adopt a new attitude and to do whatever it takes to put me and my project first, just like any good mother would do for her young.

I know that I am fully supported by my family and friends. And I watch in awe daily as I witness first hand the support from Spirit. I continue on knowing that I am in choice in every moment. 

Often, having what you want is a function of letting go of what you have. The Universe

This was the saying from Tut.com this morning.

A couple of months ago one of my mentors asked this question of me, "How do you see the next twelve months of your life looking?" It was great he hadn't asked me one day longer because I would have just gone comatose. But for some reason, I knew instantly. I would be willing to take one year and learn the pieces that I seem to be missing to move ETL forward in this day and age of technology.

In order to do that, I would need a job to support myself and stay in one place for that period of time. I had already begun applying for jobs and I was hired at Canyon Ranch in Tucson in the Program Advising Department.

Knowing my housesitting gig was coming to an end soon, I began looking for an apartment and today I started my new job and signed a year lease on my apartment. While both were exciting, they also came with their panty-twists.

There were mounds of 'disclosures' and papers to sign in both places and putting my new address down felt so vulnerable.

 I wrote to my shaman that The Universe could see I was wigging out and threw me a bone. I got a brand new red couch, night stand and new queen bed, for $400. Where is the money coming from? I actually don't know. But what I do know is that if they arrived the money will follow.

She replied: Brand new bed, table and a red couch....sounds like more than a bone....enjoy the ride and laugh wholeheartedly at all the oh shit oh shit oh shit moments.....all is well and just perfect my friend....this will be a good year....no, a great one!

I had to trust and let go of the comfort of the familiar in order to experience new possibilities.